Friends. Sigh. I can’t believe I’m FINALLY finally able to share this. I feel like I’ve been working so hard for so long for something.. and it’s weirdly relieving and wonderful and exhausting to get to this moment.
I’ve been teaching yoga for almost a year now. In fact, it was about this time last year that I announced I was pursuing yoga teacher training. And, because it’s me, and because I’m a routine over-planner, I quickly made a teacher training plan.
And I worked really hard.
And even though I had no idea what I was doing, and I had a feeling it was a little unnecessary – it is yoga teacher training after all – I wanted to feel prepared. Mentally and physically. So that I could invest my full, authentic, true self into the entire experience.
The first few days in class were strange. I felt strangely disconnected, but yearned for connection. I felt tired, and fully energized. I felt like I should be amazed and enlightened, but it all seemed so practical and clear.
And, over time, I realized something kind of amazing. Now, I’ve had a lot of different career paths over the years. And each one I have fully committed to, and I’ve worked hard, and I’ve done my very best. And I’ve received accolades and awards and praise.
But none of those career paths ever felt fully “right.” If you’ve ever felt that way in a job, a relationship, a situation, then you know what I’m talking about. It wasn’t blatently wrong, it wasn’t bad or unsafe, it wasn’t even hard. It just didn’t fit me. It didn’t fit who I am. And I always felt like I needed to try SO HARD to fit in.
It comes Naturally
When I started teaching yoga, it was different. From the very first moment that I stepped in front of the room, I knew where I was. My senses were heightened. My attention was everywhere and yet intensely focused.
It was exactly what I should be doing. Exactly where I needed to be. Exactly when I needed to be there.
Sure, I still have a lot of fear and vulnerability and insecurity around aspects of being a yoga teacher. I’m a total weirdo and awkward when it comes to working with studios. In fact, I’ve been notified about opportunities to teach and intently worked on convincing them NOT to hire me.
Like I said, I’m fully imperfect.
But when I step into the classroom. When I dim the lights, turn on the heater (I typically teach in a warm room), and start the music, it’s like magic. MAGIC. And I literally do it with my eyes closed.
Well, okay, I do have to watch the classroom to see if anyone needs adjustment.
But most of my teaching truly comes from within. It’s innate. It’s fully the most natural and authentic thing I’ve ever done. It’s like breathing. It’s effortless.
Dispelling Myths About Yoga Practice
When I first graduated from teacher training, I left with this idea that if I wanted to be a ‘good’ yogi, if I wanted to set an example for how to be a true yoga practitioner, then I would need to practice every day. For at least an hour. Sometimes more.
And I did. For a while.
And I didn’t get a lot of things done. I never wrote. I never read. I never really had time for the other things in my life.
Practice became more than practice, it became my life. It took over. And there was nothing left for anything else.
Now, I love yoga. I do. But I’m also a realist. And a mom. And a wife. And a friend. And I have a business to run.
I don’t have time to spend hours practicing the same postures every single day. I need to do the work, but it has to be practical. It has to fit into my life.
And that, friend, is where this class comes in.
Yoga for YOUR Life
Whenever it comes up that I’m a yoga teacher, there are typically three responses that I get. And the responses, for the most part, depend on the other person’s relationship to yoga. A LOT of those responses fall into the category of “I would love to do yoga, but… ” as if being introduced to a yoga teacher is enough to spark the guilt of balancing life, responsibility, and self care.
The truth is, before training I was the exact same way. I wanted to practice regularly, but I just didn’t have the time, the attention, the right circumstances. Other things always came first. And yoga, while fully accessible, never felt like a priority.
And, truly, it’s not the first priority in my life. It falls behind life, family, responsibility, and moments of joy.
But when I need it, when my body is sore, when I’ve been slaving long hours at the computer, when I’m working through a cold or virus, when I’m having trouble falling to sleep, or waking up, and when I’m just not feeling like myself, that’s when I know that I need yoga.
I need yoga.
Fitting in Short Practices
So I squeeze in a series of postures that will progressively work through whatever I need. If it’s a cold, I move my body – slow, at first, then progressively faster. If I’m still from sitting at my computer, I throw off my shoes and do the warrior series, with balances, with the help of a nearby wall. If I’m having trouble getting to sleep, I use a series of release poses to help me focus, slow my breath, and relax my body.
Whatever the need is, yoga has the answer. And I’ve found that the more I do yoga in this way, the more yoga I do, the better I get, and the happier I am.
I could keep going, but I’ll spare you. For now. 😉
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